I’m Sorry

It’s been nearly a month since I posted a blog but I’ve been busy. Work, modeling, family, personal life. It’s been busy but good!  

I spent all of October trying to get a set of photos published by non-plus publications to no avail. Instead, Pedro (the photographer) and I decided to just post on social media. The response has been awesome. Literally awesome, not like “man, that kickflip was awesome” but like awe-inspiring. I’ve posted one photo a day from the set on my Instagram and Facebook and each day the support grows.  

In the response, I see people’s want for more in the plus size industry. They want androgynous models. They want menswear fashion. They want models that don’t look like a sex vixen from Playboy. Why do we never see this represented? It’s a vicious cycle of “that’s not what sells” and “I won’t sign girls that brands don’t want” and “I can’t hire models like that because agencies don’t have them on their boards.”  

Keep telling the industry what you want as consumers. Tag brands in marketing you like. Tag brands on photography pages you like. Tag brands on model pages you like. Let them hear you!  

Your voice cannot and should not be silenced. If you don’t like what a brand is doing, take your business somewhere else. If you want them to change, tell them what needs to change. If you want your major magazines to pick up plus size models and fashion, tag them on posts all over social media and TELL THEM! We live in a world where we can find (almost always) something to visually represent what we want to say. Find it. Share it. Tell people what you want. It’s not enough to sit in silence anymore.  

It’s ok

It’s ok if life gets hard. It’s ok if you get in a bad space. It’s ok to talk about your feelings. It’s ok to not talk about your feelings. It’s ok to do what you need to do to handle your shit. It’s ok.  

So many people say you have to do life alone when it gets hard, but you don’t. You have people in your life that will stand next to you. Please let them stand next to you.  

It’s ok.  

Whoohoo!

Y’all I’ve got so much going on right now!  

Some of it I can’t tell you. Some of it is still up in the air. Some of it is in talks. Some of it is being finalized. Some of it is being edited. Some of it is being shot soon.  

The next few months are going to be fun. I’m super excited to share it all with you.  

Been working on getting a hold of my PTSD and anxiety. I’m using CBD oil daily and it seems to be helping - I’m still trying to find the right dose for me. I’m also trying to make my apartment feel more like home. I know it sounds odd but I’ve been here for a couple years in the same spot but it just felt like a place to live. I’ve put art on the walls now, got some pillows on my couch, moved the tv into the living room, set the timer on my coffee pot, found a spot for my toilet paper in the bathroom, and moved my vinyl from storage onto a bookcase. I think it’s been helping me curate my own space for myself - which helps with the anxiety. I think. 

Right now, check out my Part One of a two part episode I did for Jordan and Emily’s The Self Podcast. Link here. Also, you can find them on Google Play and iTunes! Next week I will include a link for Part Two! 

I'm Late

Ok, so, I was supposed to be trying to get these blogs on Tuesday or Wednesday but I failed this week. It's Friday and I'm barely getting to this blog.

It's been a weird week. I've been taking low doses of CBD and feeling ok. But, also been stressed and busy so who's to say what's going on in my brain right now.

I am headed to Tess's book signing in LA on Saturday, so I'm looking forward to that. Making a day of it and heading to The Plus Bus for Winston and Whiskey, a party for the new big guy's clothing subscription box Winston. I also have two video pose coaching sessions this weekend, as well as my own shoot.

I am a little nervous for this shoot on Sunday and I'll tell you why: fat models doing the androgynous look are often heavily ridiculed. The shooting I'm not worried about, it's the trolls afterward. There's a dread that I can't shake. I know the photos will be amazing but I don't want to deal with trolls. Maybe I'll just take the comments off when I post them? I don't know. I get asked if I'm a man on a somewhat regular basis on social media - this will only fuel the phobia on the interwebs.

Next weekend is the Slut Walk though, and I'm thinking of going. Large crowds aren't my favorite but I may be there with a brand I started working with. I'll keep you posted. If you are going to the Slut Walk, send me a DM on IG and let me know!

Shameless plug for video pose coaching. I do video pose coaching now! Still doing a deal for $20/hr and we can chat via Skype, FaceTime, or Facebook. Email me and we will talk about some things and get you signed up for a slot - megan@megankimberling.com. You don't have to be a model, in fact I love working with bloggers, influencers, executives, and activists all trying to give themselves the gift of self-confidence and angles.

This week was kind of rambling but it is what it is. I'll try to come back to mid-week postings.